Hold on tightly, let go lightly

We have a big problem. It's a problem we've had for about a week now and we've all been putting off, hoping that it'll go away, but of course it hasn't. We had 50 pieces for the soiree and we need to have about 20 maximum.

We showed 19 pieces this evening and told the profs that we had another 20 for Monday. In fact it's another 30. Then we had the third meeting this week where we all talked about it all alot and no one was able to make any decisions.

It is a bit killing to know that we're going to have to get rid of pieces that work, though we all know which pieces work better than others, it's just that we're not admitting it to ourselves.

This hasn't been helped by the teachers who, Jos espcially, have been very 'nice' about all the stuff we've been presenting. Either we have all finally managed to achieve a good level of work, or they want to pick our confidence levels up after the en-gueling we had last week. That would make sense - to finish their teacher-mentor relationship on a good note before we're released alone into the commands.

It also could be the most important lesson we learn, to really truely look at the work that you're doing and see if it's good or not. I thought lots of the commands last year lacked self-rigour. I hope we can all learn from this experience and do better.

Even though it's mad and busy and I'm very tired, I'm really enjoying it. I'm having a nice soiree.